– his life passes

a poem from

walking towards happiness

 he did not want 
to continue like this
his pain tormented him
the past and its facts
could not even be cured by time
 
he managed
to always move on
with his thousand and one defects
but his absurd prayers
god never listened to them
 
his sad and bitter sorrows
forced him to suffer
and his desires to be happy
slowly faded

his life collapsed
making him lose every hope
hatred changed his plan
and he even tried to erase
his own name
 
he wanted to pretend
not to feel his pain
and it ended up hurting him
twice as much
it was then when his kindness
died in an instant
he found the strength in his pain
to move forward

his soul
sometimes appease
sometimes tired
other times bewildered
 
his soul
in an empty
and cruel world
that gave him the future he did not ask for
 
and then he decided
not to be fragile again
as he was in childhood
and made of the night
a home that protected him
from his pains

the place
that makes him happy
and now that he is an adult
and no longer a child
 
he is still broken every night
and he exposes himself
to his own judgment
giving a thousand and one excuses
to his desire to cry
 
just like that
his life passes
time goes by so fast
and is never enough
 
finally his tears
his salty tears escape
his soul breaks apart
as he understood
that nobody escapes
 
even with all the courage
destiny always has a way
to catch you  


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– Walking Towards Happiness

my second poetry collection

illustrated with sketches

This book is a collection of poetry along with graphic art to provide a vivid picture of these meaningful words. An amazing book of storytelling poetry, which shares the story of the author’s life experience throughout time in seven phases. It begins with living in the darkness of what marked him as a child. Followed by expressing his lust and the desires he lived throughout his teenage years. Getting lost in the damnation those who did not understand him, those who condemned him and judged him for being the feminine gay boy that he was. He fought against the ignorance of his own family, and against the world he was born into because he was not easily accepted, but he never gave up. He remained strong and raised up to find in his utter poetry the reasons and the motivation to stand up for what he believed in. Growing up was not easy for him but still, he wanted to believe in love, he wanted to believe that the universe had something better for him and he began chasing after his happiness. Failing in countless attempts of finding the one true love, experiencing the relationships and going through the drama of breakups until his hopes withered and his love fades away. He isolated himself from the emotions of love and become bitter alive but without expectations, he met someone who gave back to him every last hope. For a second there with hesitation and doubt in mind, he stopped to think that wasn’t happening, thinking that it was a dream. Suddenly, he realized that it was real, that it was happening and love was once again knocking at his door. A heartbeat found him and invited him to let love in again. 

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– a thousand lovers

This is a Journal for the passionate hearts, get inspired in my  passionate words to help you write your lustful thoughts and to free  your fantasies and desires. It also includes an adjustable calendar for you to keep up with your tasks and to-dos. The calendar includes only sensual and erotic quotes along with some erotic art sketches from the book 'walking towards happiness'. 

May your desires and fantasies
be fulfilled as your bare flesh
gets wrapped in burning lust.
The third book/journal companion! 

walking towards happiness


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– undone

a poem from

walking towards happiness

 i once sipped my aching tears
i was broken and did not heal
i had fear
scared and frightened i closed my eyes
i was lost and filled myself with crimes
but the fault was mine
 
do not judge my darkness and my scars
i feel the sorrow of my own heart
the guilt of my own mind

you are no one
to judge who i am
and that is all you need to know
i cannot be undone
because it is done
if you are to love me
love me undone
do not change me
love me undone
 
trust me
i cannot be undone
it is already done

and i enjoy now
being here with you
learning a love so colorful
that is the truth
 
you and i have a chemistry
i admire your fantasies
so endlessly
 
you are meant to be
a chapter of my history
let me love you
like if i was your fantasy
cherish me
like if you were loving selflessly
giving everything you got
my dear
so fervently
 


2019. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.

walking towards happiness

Available now at Amazon

this book tells the story of these last years
living in the darkness that I carry in me
expressing my lust and the desires i lived
lost in the damnation of the ignorant
but i rise up and found in my utter poetry
a reason to chase my happiness above all
and i woke up one day
to find heart beating in love again
 
i am grateful
with life
with the universe
with my love ones
and of course
with each
and every single being on this planet
for simply existing

– adric ceneri

– i am in love

a poem from

walking towards happiness

 i am in love
every time i can hear your voice
i am in love
when you look deep in me through my soul
 
i know for sure i am in love
it is because of you that i can have it all
that i can understand the things i do wrong
so that i learn from them and move on
 
i am in love
because you trust me
i am in love
because you love me more
 
you complete me
in every way i know
you make me feel better
with your love
i swear i could feel my scars
healing from my soul
i am damaged but with you
nothing is wrong
 
i am in love
and i must know
you will not go
you will stay on board
here with me at any cost

i am in love
i can feel it when i have you close
and when you are far way
i miss you because you are my all
 
i am in love
i can see it when i am lost
you always pull my hand
and bring me back to our world

you are the greatest thing
i have ever known
the most complicated matter
of my right and wrong
and i can promise you
like you there are no more
that is why i love you
and i need to keep you close
 
i am in love
and you must know
i can give you my all
if you stay in my world
here with me forevermore


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– the visit

a poem from

walking towards happiness

the lady in black 
always came knocking at my door
since the beginning she appeared
looking for my soul
 
since my childhood
she tried to take me
and i said no
but today
she finally convinced me
to let go
   
so many things happened
since i was born
so many moments
that gave me pain
and denied me love
 
i carry in my heart
the transgressions
that left me undone
and i never forgot her poisonous
cold kisses and her sweet voice
   
i escaped her prison a few times
as she cornered me
from dusk to dawn
 
i beat her in so many marathons
as i ran faster but still
i bit the dust
 
she tried to always trap me
and she never could pay the cost
always insisting
and today i will not fight
so she can take me home
 
i feel no envy
for what i had to endure
all along
i only feel
an immense emptiness
inside my soul
 
i can only say
that my will was always mine
and mine alone
i can smile and feel happy
because i no longer have to run
   
the visit of this lady
only assures me
that it is time to go
she is coming dry and cold
in painful tears
without absolution
 
the visit of death
has not been the best
nor will it be the worst
but with me
i am taking a smile
full of betrayal and confusion  
 
i am taking with me
the mistakes made
wrapped in pain
 
one of many that threw me
without compassion
to the floor
 
i am taking
the clandestine sins
full of heartache
one of many that forced me
to lose my logic and reasoning
 
it forced me to
no longer fight fearless
as i always did before


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– the words of what i feel

a poem from

walking towards happiness

 one night i lost my will to love
and without doubts
my reasoning i drowned
i lost what i never had
all for wanting to forget
and i gave myself to death
without saying goodbye
 
consumed sins in my will to perish
drill my life and take away my feelings
oxidized sins do not force me to live
i only suffer writing the words of what i feel
 
i want to murder my bitter time
destroy it entirely until i see it fades away
i want to go to sleep and never wake up
to be trapped in my disdains of endless loneliness
 
i am no more than a crazy poet
who wants to go to sleep
i want to turn off the light in my eyes
and never again see
i have lived plenty in such short time
i have no reason to breathe
life finished my desire to continue living like this
   
i have lost my entire soul
fighting in this dark hole
in my eternal pedestal
i have lost every hope
i walk exhausted of a life i never asked for
and i will die unsettled
because i could not do more
 
because i let my sins
dominate my whole being
because i escaped
and ran away from my feelings
because i did not fought for what i believed in
because i was so weak
and let my blood ran freely

this eternal time
has poisoned my reasoning
it has corrupted my soul
without any remedy
 
i no longer wish to live
being who i am every morning
i live trapped in my fears
that grow by the minute helplessly
 
i am not who i once was
and i am ready to leave
i truly want to never return to this world
i want to rest in peace
i have lived plenty now i only have pain
hatred and suffering in my veins
 
my desire to live
a life i never asked for
has disappeared
 


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– if you had known

a poem from

walking towards happiness

 if you had known
the consequences to this
you might have done
things differently
 
i do not understand
but i want to believe in you
hoping that all you did
was thinking of my sisters and me
   
i have been mad at you for so long
for abandoning me
blaming you for everything
that happened to me
blaming you for all those insults
taken on me
blaming you for all those times
when people hurt me
blaming you for not having
what a kid needs
since the day you left
i lost everything
   
when you left
my world fell apart
you were my mother
my everything
all i had
i needed you with me
to tell me
everything was going to be alright
 
i needed your love
your company
your hugs
 
but instead
all i had
was the silence of my room
between the walls
   
i cannot remember
why you left me behind
what did i do wrong
for you to walk out of my life
so many times i thought
i was not worthy to be alive
if my own mother left me
who would want
the burden she had
   
today as i try to find forgiveness
being broken inside
i find myself full of resentment
and i hate you for that
i truly hope that saying ‘i forgive you’
helps us both to move on
to start all over
and to begin a life full of happiness
on our own
 
i am no longer that child you left
hurt and alone
i am who writes this to you
saying ‘thank you mom’
thank you for the life you gave your son 
i have learned to be me
to be strong
and now i have reasons
to overcome the past and move on
 


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– wounds

a poem from

walking towards happiness

 if only you knew how much 
the sound of your voice hurts
if only i could ignore your spoken words
 
you pushed me away
when you danced on my wounds
you ended up alone
and i was left with an empty soul
 
you are the person who gave me life
but this resentment is something
you just cannot erase
between you and me there is only pain
deep wounds i wish one day
will heal themselves

many times i promised
to ask forgiveness to you and myself
cold and long nights of abandonment
in my corner space
so many times i awaited your return
but it never came
people sentenced me for being the gay orphan
it was my fate
 
biblical stories filled me with horror
ignorance and violence
deprived me of a better world
from one place to the other
without love or compassion
always asking myself if that was the will of the lord
   
i feel alone
with my soul full of rage
time has not cured
my deep wounds
it has only
intensified my pain
 
time has only
wither my joy
it has broken to pieces
my spirit and my hopes


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