walking towards happiness

Available NOW on Amazon April 25th 2019, softcover and kindle unlimited editions.

this book tells the story of these last years
living in the darkness that I carry in me
expressing my lust and the desires i lived
lost in the damnation of the ignorant
but i rise up and found in my utter poetry
a reason to chase my happiness above all
and i woke up one day
to find heart beating in love again
 
i am grateful
with life
with the universe
with my love ones
and of course
with each
and every single being on this planet
for simply existing

– adric ceneri

A TRIP WITHOUT RETURN

My Poetry:

Los Restos de un Humano

In my trip to this world,
the sky falls down as it sees my fears.
I don’t want to turn to the mirror,
because I’m someone else I’ve never been.
 
I’m tired of being manipulated.
I’m sick of pretending that I’m a good mannered kid.
I’m rebel and I can’t pretend anymore.
I can’t fake that I have no feelings; I do believe in love.
 
People criticize the way I talk,
the way I dress and walk.
I want to escape and never turn back,
I’m tired of appearances; I can’t be who I am.
 
Too many times, I have asked the Lord,
if someone loves me, because I see no one with me.
I wonder if there is someone alone,
so that way we could share our worlds.
 
I’d like to be remembered one day,
I don’t want to die thinking I’ll be forgotten.
I change my mind and many times, I don’t know what to do,
because I’m sensible and I fear to be hurt.
 
People talk about me, they just say trash,
I have never heard that someone loves me; I give up.
I believe it would be better to take off and never come back.
I can’t swim against the sea tides; I’ll let myself drown.

2009. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.

DARKNESS OF THE FORGOTTEN

My Poetry:

Los Restos de un Humano

I’m starting to lose my mind,
it claims something impossible to have.
My soul wants to sell itself,
it says that I’m not worthy to have its faith.
My sad eyes cry as they see,
that my properties don’t want to obey me.
 
The shiny moon sings sadly, as the day begins,
because its journey ends when the sun comes out again.
The bright sun angrily rules over earth,
burning everything until there’s nothing but ash.
People have forgotten how beautiful life is,
and sadly, they let themselves fall down until they die.
They make their own graves,
an extinction that happened yesterday,
something close to it will occur again.
 
Life was beautiful but not anymore,
today is just a shadow that, without light, is lost.
The seas are painful deserts in this world,
not understandable words of verses, rhymes with tone.
Now the silence has my voice,
it makes this a hell where nothing’s worth anything.
 
I have no reason to be,
the good angel I will never be.
Blood on my hands means I did something wrong,
now my conscience won’t leave me alone.
There is no time or space to stay,
I leave, goodbye there’s nothing else…

2009. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.

walking towards happiness

Will be available on Amazon April 25th 2019, softcover and kindle unlimited editions.

this book tells the story of these last years
living in the darkness that I carry in me
expressing my lust and the desires i lived
lost in the damnation of the ignorant
but i rise up and found in my utter poetry
a reason to chase my happiness above all
and i woke up one day
to find heart beating in love again
 
i am grateful
with life
with the universe
with my love ones
and of course
with each
and every single being on this planet
for simply existing

– adric ceneri

THE WORLD WITH YOU

My Poetry:

Los Restos de un Humano

It’s beautiful to travel around the world,
although having someone would be better than being alone.
Doesn’t matter if the Lord’s Angels will always be with me
to protect me, to take care of me.
From the deepest of my heart, I wish to have someone with me.
 
I wish for someone who could show me love.
I wish to have someone to walk with, to where I go,
just a person, just a boy.
 
The shadows of the dark night covered my path,
and with it, painful memories come back.
I’m driving without sense, without track.
 
It’s beautiful to travel around the world,
although knowing I love someone makes me feel less lost.
Doesn’t matter if death’s hill will always be after me,
because God will always defend me.
 
I do not wish more than having you in my life.
I want nothing but to have you with me in this world.
I want to have you for at least a few minutes,
I want you and I want to be loved.
 
The sunrise comes out and shows me my future,
and with it, the best love in the universe.
I’m driving and you’re with me going to infinity.

2009. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.

SOUL FEAR

My Poetry:

Los Restos de un Humano

I haven’t seen you,
but you’re always in my mind.
 
I’m losing the hope to be with you,
I’m feeling lost in this life.
 
I’m afraid of your decision,
afraid to let go.
I still don’t have you,
I don’t know what’s wrong.
 
My soul demands your love,
but it seems you’re lost.
 
If I could, I’d clear your doubts,
let you know you are my world.
 
Your great still eyes scream at me,
I ask, “What’s the big deal?”
All they answer is, “It’s not a dream.”
 
I wish I could be part of your dreams.
Share my deep secrets and make you feel,
that you can always count on me.

2009. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.

CONFUSION

My Poetry:

Los Restos de un Humano

I’m so confused 
and I don’t know which way to go.
I believed I knew the answers, but I do not know.
 
I believed I knew who I was, but now I don’t know who I am.
I’m lost in a moral,
in here, the questions bother my mind.
 
I’m like a lost human in a maze, lost between the edges of my stress.
I don’t know where to go,
nor if I want to stay in this hell.
 
There’s no way to go back
to the place everything started. I’m on a loose string,
I’m at the edge of the abyss.
 
I can’t be myself.
I can’t because I don’t know who I am.
I used to believe I was invincible,
slowly, but surely I destroyed myself.
I ripped my heart and faded away.
 
I’m just tired of acting; I hate to fake feelings.
I’m just a teen boy, a human being who demands peace and love.
 
2009. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.