This book is a collection of poetry along with graphic art to provide a vivid picture of these meaningful words. An amazing book of storytelling poetry, which shares the story of the author’s life experience throughout time in seven phases. It begins with living in the darkness of what marked him as a child. Followed by expressing his lust and the desires he lived throughout his teenage years. Getting lost in the damnation those who did not understand him, those who condemned him and judged him for being the feminine gay boy that he was. He fought against the ignorance of his own family, and against the world he was born into because he was not easily accepted, but he never gave up. He remained strong and raised up to find in his utter poetry the reasons and the motivation to stand up for what he believed in. Growing up was not easy for him but still, he wanted to believe in love, he wanted to believe that the universe had something better for him and he began chasing after his happiness. Failing in countless attempts of finding the one true love, experiencing the relationships and going through the drama of breakups until his hopes withered and his love fades away. He isolated himself from the emotions of love and become bitter alive but without expectations, he met someone who gave back to him every last hope. For a second there with hesitation and doubt in mind, he stopped to think that wasn’t happening, thinking that it was a dream. Suddenly, he realized that it was real, that it was happening and love was once again knocking at his door. A heartbeat found him and invited him to let love in again.
This is a Journal for the passionate hearts, get inspired in my passionate words to help you write your lustful thoughts and to free your fantasies and desires. It also includes an adjustable calendar for you to keep up with your tasks and to-dos. The calendar includes only sensual and erotic quotes along with some erotic art sketches from the book 'walking towards happiness'.
May your desires and fantasies be fulfilled as your bare flesh gets wrapped in burning lust.
This is the second Journal of the four book-journal companion of my new book, ‘walking towards happiness’. This is a Journal for the broken hearts, to liberate your anger, your deceptions and to free the loss of love. It also includes an adjustable calendar for you to keep up with your tasks and to-dos. The calendar includes only breakup quotes and illustrated art sketches from the book ‘walking towards happiness’.
one night i lost my will to love and without doubts my reasoning i drowned i lost what i never had all for wanting to forget and i gave myself to death without saying goodbye
consumed sins in my will to perish drill my life and take away my feelings oxidized sins do not force me to live i only suffer writing the words of what i feel
i want to murder my bitter time destroy it entirely until i see it fades away i want to go to sleep and never wake up to be trapped in my disdains of endless loneliness
i am no more than a crazy poet who wants to go to sleep i want to turn off the light in my eyes and never again see i have lived plenty in such short time i have no reason to breathe life finished my desire to continue living like this
i have lost my entire soul fighting in this dark hole in my eternal pedestal i have lost every hope i walk exhausted of a life i never asked for and i will die unsettled because i could not do more
because i let my sins dominate my whole being because i escaped and ran away from my feelings because i did not fought for what i believed in because i was so weak and let my blood ran freely
this eternal time has poisoned my reasoning it has corrupted my soul without any remedy
i no longer wish to live being who i am every morning i live trapped in my fears that grow by the minute helplessly
i am not who i once was and i am ready to leave i truly want to never return to this world i want to rest in peace i have lived plenty now i only have pain hatred and suffering in my veins
my desire to live a life i never asked for has disappeared
if you had known the consequences to this you might have done things differently
i do not understand but i want to believe in you hoping that all you did was thinking of my sisters and me
i have been mad at you for so long for abandoning me blaming you for everything that happened to me blaming you for all those insults taken on me blaming you for all those times when people hurt me blaming you for not having what a kid needs since the day you left i lost everything
when you left my world fell apart you were my mother my everything all i had i needed you with me to tell me everything was going to be alright
i needed your love your company your hugs
but instead all i had was the silence of my room between the walls
i cannot remember why you left me behind what did i do wrong for you to walk out of my life so many times i thought i was not worthy to be alive if my own mother left me who would want the burden she had
today as i try to find forgiveness being broken inside i find myself full of resentment and i hate you for that i truly hope that saying ‘i forgive you’ helps us both to move on to start all over and to begin a life full of happiness on our own
i am no longer that child you left hurt and alone i am who writes this to you saying ‘thank you mom’ thank you for the life you gave your son i have learned to be me to be strong and now i have reasons to overcome the past and move on