– the words of what i feel

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a poem from

walking towards happiness

 one night i lost my will to love
 and without doubts 
 my reasoning i drowned
 i lost what i never had 
 all for wanting to forget
 and i gave myself to death 
 without saying goodbye
  
 consumed sins in my will to perish
 drill my life and take away my feelings
 oxidized sins do not force me to live
 i only suffer writing the words of what i feel
  
 i want to murder my bitter time
 destroy it entirely until i see it fades away
 i want to go to sleep and never wake up
 to be trapped in my disdains of endless loneliness
  
 i am no more than a crazy poet 
 who wants to go to sleep
 i want to turn off the light in my eyes 
 and never again see
 i have lived plenty in such short time 
 i have no reason to breathe
 life finished my desire to continue living like this
    
 i have lost my entire soul 
 fighting in this dark hole
 in my eternal pedestal 
 i have lost every hope
 i walk exhausted of a life i never asked for
 and i will die unsettled 
 because i could not do more
  
 because i let my sins 
 dominate my whole being
 because i escaped 
 and ran away from my feelings
 because i did not fought for what i believed in
 because i was so weak 
 and let my blood ran freely
 
 this eternal time 
 has poisoned my reasoning
 it has corrupted my soul 
 without any remedy
  
 i no longer wish to live 
 being who i am every morning
 i live trapped in my fears 
 that grow by the minute helplessly
  
 i am not who i once was 
 and i am ready to leave
 i truly want to never return to this world 
 i want to rest in peace
 i have lived plenty now i only have pain 
 hatred and suffering in my veins
     
my desire to live 
a life i never asked for 
has disappeared 
  


2019. Adric Ceneri. All right reserved.

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Adric Ceneri is an LGBTQ artist, poet, writer, and author. He was born in Mexico and lived there during his childhood. He was raised in the coasts of the Pacific Ocean with his parents up to the age of five, and when his parents separated, he had to endure and survive the consequences of his parents’ poor lives choices. The majority of his poetry reflects the pains and sufferings he had to endure. He writes about his sexuality and the events that marked him throughout childhood and the difficulties he faced when he was growing up. Ceneri often writes with a rebellious heart through his poetry, expressing his emotions and always remaining true to who he is as an artist. As a poet and writer, he transmits his feelings and embodies his transgressions in magical word-plays truly transforming pain into art. With over 17 years in writing and over 10 years since his birth as a published poet and writer; Ceneri has now 2 poetry collections, a set of four-book journals and two anthologies. Ceneri is currently invested in Magesoul Publishing working with the founder, Carlos Medina and core executives to help the poetry community voices to be heard and recognized. Adric is a passionate artist, creating books covers such as ‘IT HURTS’, ‘SURVIVAL’ and ‘HEALING’, the first trilogy of anthologies by Magesoul Publishing and for other books published through Magesoul Publishing. Adric also has written a chapter for each of the books in this trilogy of anthologies, poems not published in any of his other books. He is also translating books and creating art for other authors.

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