if you had known the consequences to this you might have done things differently
i do not understand but i want to believe in you hoping that all you did was thinking of my sisters and me
i have been mad at you for so long for abandoning me blaming you for everything that happened to me blaming you for all those insults taken on me blaming you for all those times when people hurt me blaming you for not having what a kid needs since the day you left i lost everything
when you left my world fell apart you were my mother my everything all i had i needed you with me to tell me everything was going to be alright
i needed your love your company your hugs
but instead all i had was the silence of my room between the walls
i cannot remember why you left me behind what did i do wrong for you to walk out of my life so many times i thought i was not worthy to be alive if my own mother left me who would want the burden she had
today as i try to find forgiveness being broken inside i find myself full of resentment and i hate you for that i truly hope that saying ‘i forgive you’ helps us both to move on to start all over and to begin a life full of happiness on our own
i am no longer that child you left hurt and alone i am who writes this to you saying ‘thank you mom’ thank you for the life you gave your son i have learned to be me to be strong and now i have reasons to overcome the past and move on
Adric Ceneri is an LGBTQ artist, poet, writer, and author. He was born in Mexico and lived there during his childhood. He was raised in the coasts of the Pacific Ocean with his parents up to the age of five, and when his parents separated, he had to endure and survive the consequences of his parents’ poor lives choices. The majority of his poetry reflects the pains and sufferings he had to endure. He writes about his sexuality and the events that marked him throughout childhood and the difficulties he faced when he was growing up. Ceneri often writes with a rebellious heart through his poetry, expressing his emotions and always remaining true to who he is as an artist. As a poet and writer, he transmits his feelings and embodies his transgressions in magical word-plays truly transforming pain into art.
With over 17 years in writing and over 10 years since his birth as a published poet and writer; Ceneri has now 2 poetry collections, a set of four-book journals and two anthologies.
Ceneri is currently invested in Magesoul Publishing working with the founder, Carlos Medina and core executives to help the poetry community voices to be heard and recognized.
Adric is a passionate artist, creating books covers such as ‘IT HURTS’, ‘SURVIVAL’ and ‘HEALING’, the first trilogy of anthologies by Magesoul Publishing and for other books published through Magesoul Publishing. Adric also has written a chapter for each of the books in this trilogy of anthologies, poems not published in any of his other books. He is also translating books and creating art for other authors.
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